RantWoman Sleeps--or Not

Barely three hours of sleep. The Sunday crossword puxxle is done. The dishes are clean. Email and  ... and are due to be written. But I MUST exercise--and NOT buy more ice cream.

Somewhere over 4 hours of sleep night before last Almost 5 today counting going back to bed mid morning. in bed and another 2 sleeping in chair. Definitely total helps but I still did not get dishes done before daily calls started. Caramel ice cream plus rum plus a bunch of other calories did not help about getting to bed early. Then the crossword puzzle. At least no computer. Trivia with ACB affiliates was a good idea but a bold thing to try for first time. And then there are protest updates via Twitter. I wore black lives matter t-shirt but had to make digression about virtual strip poker for the blind. Do not ask how that was in the conversation.

4.5 hours of sleep counting after breakfast. The late going to bed was because of the NYT crossword puzzle. Addict. Except somehow the puzzle makes my phone do the same things my old phone did. And it feels so good when I finish the puzzle. Note to self: figure out issues to make the puzzle accessible. No blue light special at least.

Somewhere close to 6 hours of sleep, 1-5 am and back to bed at 7 after breakfast. Some weird headachy thing going on but did not take anything including new pill option. I did not like waking up fuzzy from pill but should probably try to go to bed early enough and try it again. Pharmacy refilled it automatically without me asking too. Not enough exercise, AGAIN. But worth the walk over to 7-11 for perfectly average convenience store burrito and knowledge that Baskin Robbins is considered essential enough to be open. Boy does RantWoman sometimes need ice cream, though not last night. Grapevine at the 7-11 said the blue lights from night before last were some kind of K9 pursuit. Makes sense with the short siren spurts. And attention from Romania seems to have dropped off precipitously. Must get more exercise today. And too many conference calls.

Somewhere around 4.5 hours total counting an hour after breakfast. Missing from yesterday: --Enough of a walk. --As much socialization as Sunday including the late-night in-person delivery of more vegetables than I need and the ethical dilemma about whether just to use them or to leave some of them for neighbors. I do not have to, have to, have to get my face into the crossword puzzle late at night but... The Blue Light special: some kind of police activity near enough to hear little bursts of siren and to see blue lights flashing on the wall as I was going to bed around 3 am. I could close blinds but that makes me claustrophobic. And one reward: a weird #pandemic dream about wires down arc'ing in the street and some kind of garage where things were supposed to be getting fixed except one guy just wanted to leave because of asthma. Why can't RantWoman have bucolic dreams full of exuberant shrubbery and flowering abundance? Don't say because they would all come o...

Sleep total somewhere close to 5 hours counting before and after breakfast. Also relevant: --no computer after supper --friend who wanted to come over after work    --bringing excess produce from her food bank scrounging: will some of it go to the building free table if i decide I do not need leeks or potatoes OR do I just make soup?    --Collect peanut butter jars and egg cartons to give her     --Excavate table so there is place to drink tea. A good third of the total pile went straight to recycling; must make time in daylight to cull what was rounded up into 3 bags down to 1. Then must start on all the other paper.    --Late night food: rhubarb pickles but not the plate of after ramadan food neighbor brought over. I ate that for breakfast.   --tea and ice water and chased friend out after 12. Friend is a phenomenon. Hidden physical disability and genetic oddities. Family history of a mental health issue, and of course a cert...

Wowie Kazowie. I made it to over 6 hours of sleep about 5 by going to bed shortly after 12 and then going back to bed after breakfast for another 1.5 hours before I had to deal with the question, what does one wear to a virtual college reunion webinar? More on that shortly. The NO SNACKING in the evening thing seems to help. Also no more computer after THREE teleconferences with the last one just a lot of really bright friendly blind people. A vigorous round of laundry including washing the towels that did not get washed last time also helped. (Solved the laundry change problem. Forget the bank. Just ask the clerk if they can sell a roll of quarters, do cash back at the point of sale device and voila.) What to wear? School color? Orange? Clothing in perfect repair? Ummm, settled on the pinkish orange T shirt, my new WONDERFUL orange striped socks and denim jumper that needs some buttons sewn on but is decent as long as I wear shorts underneath. What to reminisce / talk about:...

Solid 5 hours of sleep. Plenty of protein in a late afternoon lunch / supper and no snacking after! It was SO energizing to grab the first bus and wind up at Uwajimaya. Also concerning. Did not make it to bed until about 2. Earlier would have been better. And could not go back to bed because of an extra Zoom call: can you say "involve people younger than 60 / widen circles" as a recurring theme. The bedtime reading: a book called I think There There about barbarities committed against Native americans in the 17th century. Ai-yi-yi. Also quibble with Zoom webinar setup. DoreneC

About 5 hours of sleep not counting a small spell of dozing while watching videos. Memo to self: --GET MORE EXERCISE. --NO Evening munching even if it is only rice cake and raisins, oh and almonds. --If you are just going to be a Zombie and get nothing done anyway, just GO TO BED. --Oh and try to get to the emotional stuff earlier in the day. --Pouring rain sounds just lovely and unicorns barfing rainbows still cracks me up.

Sleep: about two hours asleep in chair and almost 4 more in bed. I should have gone back to bed. A walk to the pharmacy after turning down offers of delivery options was really good for both body and soul although eating curried chicken salad at 9 pm maybe not so much. And I MUST read the Custer battle book but maybe not as bedtime reading. At least I avoided caffeine and restocked the chocolate side of the  future powdered milk mocha theme with hershey's syrup. This morning's virtue: quit procrastinating and wash dishes. COPE with the revelations that stumbled out of brain in that process. STAY TUNED. Yesterday's online worship group was LOVELY. NOTHING about my leading as far as Friends younger than 60 but gift of overcoming LOTS of geography and age-tinged travel limitations. People liked and responded interestingly to my get acquainted questions. Thank you Mt. St. Helens anniversary. As for the unicorns barfing rainbows, a radio interview with the journalist...

Somewhere closet o 4 hours total including an hour + falling asleep while watching video, not quite 2 hours in bed before breakfast and another 3/4 hour after breakfast How NOT to get a good night's sleep TWO coffee beverages in one day. start a message that needed to be long about accessibility for mental heath telehealth applcaions. Then keep working Forget to press the sleep button on the talking book reader and wind up listening to the day of the Custer battle all night. Ugh. Wake up in the middle of the afternoon after a bucolic beginning in the morning. Have a video conference at 9:30 Definitely heading toward midsummer. Reminding me of previous years travels in notrhern europe and also the long drive to visit trandfather in WY on way to MT just in case one wants options for mentally being elsewhere besides here in the middle of the pandemic.

Bed around midnight. NO computer after about 9. Made oatmeal instead. Weekly pot of porridge so I do not have to try to cook first thing in the morning. Now about that bathroom lightbulb. Either nephew needs to come over or I need a step stool with the right weight capacity. Anyway somewhere over  5 hours of sleep and I feel asleep too fast to remember much except I need to jot down the book title, note that it is written by a white guy who actually was able to interview primary sources. And the book SHOULD still be available in print but it is AWESOME that the MT library for the blind has it recorded. But the sleep total: almost 5.5 hours in bed the first time plus about another hour.

Sleep: about an hour after falling asleep mid-video in the computer lab, after 20 minutes walking the breezeway and missing G to give him a mouse pad as a get-weel present. Oh right. Another 3 hours in bed, breakfast and another 1.5 after breakfast. So somewhere past 5 total and at least 4.5 in bed. The mouse pad? 11 year old African Am. kid whose family appears to have a number of "oh good grief" personal decisionmaking moments. G has been struggling for awhile and a new baby brother appeared and ... and now G broke his leg skate boarding. So he is racing around in a kid-sized motorized wheelchair. But a mouse pad is an easy get well gift and he asked anyway. Now it's mid afternoon. I had powedered milk mocha and I need either some walk the breezeway time or a nap.

SIX plus hours of sleep. Achieved by: --four hours in bed plus breakfast plus going back to bed for 2+ hours --falling asleep before last drink of water, finding sleep pill, or finding thumb drive with audio books, not to mention reading psalm in braille. --Exercise of journey to downtown Target in quest for microwave. Everything there either too large or too small with the side of the box in Spanish on display. Also considered just getting a stovetop oven like a toaster oven. And decided to skip microwave popcorn until I actually get a microwave. --great quaker call earlier in the day and one yesterday and not looking too hard at data usage numbers: at some point telecomm provider is going to want MONEY to maintain.... --two+ hours of hanging out in blind zoom, hopefully making more good local connections, sharing useful info, meditating about absurdities of local rental market and ways for things to shake out if more people go to remote work. --Memo to self: look for ne...

Somewhere not quite 4 hours in bed AND not going back to bed. On the night time end, RantWoman is a grownup and does not HAVE to be up until 3 am doing a crossword puzzle. On the morning end RantWoman COULD have gone back to bed after breakfast except RantWoman remembered a Zoom call at 10:30. Random retail therapy notes: --RantWoman is THRILLED to have new clothes. --RantWoman finds it helpful to dress as if going to work just in order to corral her tendency to let her mind wander all over the place. This is helpful as far as professional demeanor. It is not helpful as far as being appropriately dressed for Dealing With a number of household chores RantWoman keeps avoiding. Adulting is so much fun.

RantWoman probably achieved close to 6 hours of sleep counting 4+ in bed starting around 4 but with a break for a drink of water and musing about rappers and the Llama Llama Red Pajama book. DJKhaled does Llama Llama Red Pajama There are other much more adult versions on Youtube. Before bed, RantWoman drifted in and out of sleep when RantWoman should have just gone to bed instead of doing her 20 minutes on the breezeway way too late and then going to the computer lab. No, that does not all make linear sense. Cope. Today RantWoman feels well-exercised after a trip exulting in rhodies and walk segments related to bus routing and retail therapy involving cat food and flax meal--but no donuts.

If one goes to bed after 12 and wakes up at 5, that is cool whether or not one decided to add the sleeping pill option. Having the luxury of going back to sleep for an hour after 8 is gravy. Almost xix hours total. No opinion about the take as needed med. Helpful digression from looking up Quaker titles on BARD (sigh) to get password updated, app  downloaded and secret question set in case I forget the kind of wacky password I set to deal with site password rules. Not sure whether the Very Stable genius book is better bedtime reading thant he whole thumb drive full of PutinPlutocracy titles. But I got a couple titles from the low vision book group and something about general custer. So at least I have bedtime reading options. Also very happy about some new mail order clothes except I guessed wrong about blouse size. Either send back and exchange or just adapt how I wear.

Almost 5 hours total counting going back to bed for over an hour. If RantWoman had actually gone to bed when she started falling asleep there would have been another hour or so. RantWoman should not necessarily look up the lyrics for songs in foreign languages. in the case of both Vargtimmen and Raven they kind of muddle metaphors when it might be fine just to shut up about words and let the music run. Clean sheets are a GLORIOUS thing.

RantWoman snagged about an hour nap early in the evening to compensate for the previous night's shortfall. RantWoman spent about two hours drifting in and out of sleep in a chair and NOT going to the computer lab. Then RantWoman went to bed before 1 and woke up about 5 for a CPAP minimum of 4 hours. Going back to bed would definitely have been possible but as frequently happens, physical activity wound up feeling more helpful at least in the short term. Physical activity included: washing dishes, running bed linens through dryer and changing sheets. Also making hummus mashing chickpeas by hand because who wants to waste counter space with any kind of food processor? Okay counter space needs to get rid of surplus peanut butter jars and a bunch of other clutter too, and the great pandemic purge proceeds fitfully anyway. By the time all of this activity occurred it was too late to go back to bed no matter what. NOw it's 2 pm and RantWoman could use a nap but there is EMAIL...

3.5 hours. Maybe sneak  in a nap yet. Something exhilarating about going TO bed at 6 am. Exhilarating and evocative of travels when much younger. And NOT sustainable. But oh boy the data....

Almost 6 hours of sleep. Accomplished by going to bed after 1, getting up before 6 and going back to bed after 7 until almost 9 Falling asleep the talking book player needed to squawk. Procrastinating about dishwashing...

Surprisingly despite dietary moments documented below and a need just to stare out the window in the middle of the night, I made it to almost 5 hours of sleep. The parking lot is weirdly magical at 4 am and clarity muddles out of a middle of the night email exchange. For bedtime food, besides popcorn, grapefruit, peanut butter pretzels, and ice water. Always Ice water. For bedtime prep, RantWoman has decided TO HECK with the comics performing alone in their apartments. RantWoman needs to clean out the cobwebs. RantWoman owns the album this song comes from, but darned if RantWoman can tell either what the lyrics mean or where to find a translation. Use yer search enginz! Other miscellaneous note: RantWoman is fond of saying the only reason she would ever consider a sex change would be if she were extremely confident that she would come out with a nice male singing voice. That does not happen so enjoy the guys here. Hednigarna is a Finnish group that performs music from the Finni...

Somewhere close to 5.5 hours of sleep IN SPITE OF a whole hour almost getting the crossword puzzle done. Light breakfast and going back to bed after helped. How many ways to do evening sleep prep wrong: --birthday cake.Happy Birthday Little Sister. Thank you nephew for dropping off cake. Thank you everyone for family Zoom and laughing at I Zoom therefore I am and cheerleading to get Mom wired in. Not save the whole piece. Not save half the piece. Eat the WHOLE piece at dinner time but still. Walk the breezeway. Admire the full moon. Do not mumble about streaks in eyes. Collect important intruder chatter from neighbor headed to smoking bench. Popcorn while watching TED ED video about the history of cats and humans. (Note to self: pizza sounds like a good idea. Check out frozen food options) Order microwave? Download books? Or try new med and see whether can stay in bed longer than 5 hours without needing to move! Upon waking, does RantWoman --take trash out and per...

Achieved about 4.5 hours of sleep. Laundry is kick-ass exercise. New machines ROCK. Social distancing and dance with limited English, ummm. And dial-a-tirade available about flat-panel laundry controls. I could get laundry because I have enough vision to tell the grey from the black and there are SOME tactile elements. But 10 blind or deaf-blind people..... Stay tuned. UGH: the sleep is partly free-form anxiety. REALLY should try new...that I am still hesitating about. Ugh I was hoping going to bed earlier would result in longer total sleep. Ummm Went to bed earlier than the past few nights but did stay up to listen to end of program on sleep hygiene. Note to self: bed time ritual: scoop the cat box, wash hands. Brush teeth. Eyedrops. CPAP machine Note to self: download some books for the talking book player because it is so gloriously tactile and I don't have to fret about blue light from phone or computer. Theoretically could have gone back to bed after I woke up to...

Another 4+ hour night. Go to bed earlier. No Munchies and no computer. Yeah. Yeah. Excuse for procrastinating about laundry: flat panel controls on new machines instead of nice big tactile buttons on the old falling apart machines. Preference for buttons I THOUGHT was communicated during the contracting process but now there are about 10 blind and deaf-blind people who are going to have to speak up for ourselves. And we will need to speak up even if I manage to get my laundry done enough with the flat panel controls.

About 4.5 hours in bed plus some in chair. Going to bed earlier would help. A friend had laser repair of a retina tear. She liked it when I said "fire photon torpedoes" Random jargon on community partners call about COVID and homeless population I and Q CLI

Barely 4 hours in bed. BUT I finished the entire NYT Sunday crossword puzzle AND I did not make it back to bed because of talking for an hour with my sister about among other things our childhood tuxedo cat who a couple times tried to teach us to hunt by bringing home baby skunks and um, er, Nephew's first speeding ticket, the details of which of course are young adult in transition but are so gloriously in the realm of normal life that maybe I will manage to summon more hope and forbearance about selter at home stuff just because there is normal in the air at least a little bit.

Sleep in 3 spells 2 in chair and longest in bed. Total somewhere over 5 hours. No late-night computing. Instead inspiration early to offer TWO fairly ambitious interest groups for Annual Session. OKAYYYYY. Ask for help! Oh, and hyperventilating about well gee if everyone is going to get a video introduction, how can we enhance accessibility? Maybe Quaker Speak has examples of captioning. RantWoman, BREATHE. Breathe. Maybe the suggestions will not be as daunting as you think. Maybe people will realize that audio description will help anyone who misses visuals. Maybe maybe. Breathe. Breathe. Try NOT to walk to near emotional sore spots. Breathe. Breathe.To hell with that. RantWoman step AWAY from the keyboard. Wash some dishes. Oops did that during the governor's weekly press conference. Do a crossword puzzle. Do not whine too much about how reconditioned phone sucks almost as badly as previous dead phone. Do Not. How much sleep did you NOT get night before last? Yeah, ...

Somewhere over 4 hours but this counts somewhere near an hour in the chair before I did some more work and FINALLY went to bed. Weird how the late-night snack at first put me to sleep and then clearly energized me. Plus I used some of my stimulus payment to buy underwear. Re microwave: still in progress I DO NOT WANT bluttooth enabled Microwave on the Internet. I DO NOT