Catching up, with Whole Life Challenge and a big NOT Sleep

RantWoman has been doing a cycle of #WholeLifeChallenge. This item is draft notes to be cleaned up for different audiences.

 

The short version:  underguidance of a program in an app or on a website, teams walk thorugh goals in several areas. One can do the challenge alone or in a group. Each Challenge lasts 6 weeks.

 

#hydration is easy. RantWoman is used to carrying around a water bottle, knowing its capacity and knowing that she does fine about the suggested consumption level. Hydration makes a big difference.  Still, doing too well on hydration sometimes leads to need to pee at inconvenient times or locations.

 

#mobilization: RantWoman has slightly upped her existing daily stretch and small movements  routine. That feels good. RantWoman LIKES a video of a seated stretch of the thoracic spine but needs to find a place to do it in her apartment.

 

#exercise: RantWoman should read the rules but she has in Twitter been chronicling the ups and downs of exercise in her environment.

 

#reflection: easy. RantWoman has too many words a lot of the time anyway.

RantWoman is noting without further comment different patterns of posting and responsiveness among her teammates.

  

#well-being: breathing, gratitude, letting things go, pick a task and do it. All helpful.

 

#nutrition: RantWoman still has not gotten the rules read. There are 3 different levels. RantWoman has been following rules and dinging herself as follows:

--carbs: lower fat, higher fiber, lower sugar is good.

--Fat? Uhhh

--Not eating late in the evening Good.

--Binging on sugar, chocolate, mindless carbs even high fiber ones bad.

--Dairy: necessarily on planet RantWoman but aim for low fat, higher protein.

--aim for green and orange veggies, pot of the week in single servings from the freezer. Need to figure out better strategies for event food.

One of these days RantWoman will read the rules, REALLY.

 

Now the rest of the deal.

#sleep Goal at least 5 hours and try for 6. RantWoman has been mostly bouncing around between 4 hours and almost 6 hours and generally holding steady at greater than 5 hours most nights.

 

Except last night.

&(scoring digression: the app seems to not believe Rantwoman when she dings her score. RantWoman guesses she is supposed to be grateful for the encouragement but RantWoman likes the data to mean something.

 

Last night or more precisely early this morning RantWoman slept approximately TWO hours.

 

Why so little?

 

The latest chapter in RantWoman’s ongoing #DisabilityInChurch saga is an email riddled with misrepresentations, lousy theology, mawkish young adult superficiality, gaslighting, and of course earnest overweaning good intentions.  The email was followed by a live meeting. All RantWoman has to say is based on the content of the email, RantWoman is wondering whether she and the Care and Accountability Committee named to make everyone else feel better have been at the same meetings.  Said committee has not been entirely useless or unhelpful, but RantWoman is losing capacity for air traffic control considering all the elements flying FULL SPEED into RantWoman’s BS detector.

 

“RantWoman, you can’t do that.” Really? RantWoman CAN do all kinds of things. Whether or not they are a good idea is a different problem.

 

“RantWoman you should not still be mad about outrages from several years ago.” Since when is it your job to decide the schedule of my emotions?

"RantWoman, the solution to what you are concerned about is simple so why are you stuck on the inflammatory language?" The inflammatory language is exactly ONE good reason for need to deal. RantWoman agrees about the step needed but getting there is NOT simple if the exact logical person to have in the conversation sends all of RantWoman's email to spam just as a matter of course.

 

"RantWoman even if you are howling in pain and objecting to abuse, even though I have appointed myself one of your spiritual wards, I do not want to read angry upset emails.” Look Friend, no one is required to WANT to read such emails, but having the spiritual center and intestinal fortitude to read and see what might be helpful is a gift GREATLY to be desired. Plus, sarcasm alert, what could possibly go wrong if the emails contain serious distress and NO ONE READS OR RESPONSDS TO THEM????

 

“RantWoman, God has nothing to do with it.” 1. How dare you presume to know how God is tending my soul? 2. God actually seems to be pulling several directions in the cumulative conversations. Probably it would be awesome to start by acknowledging that.

 

RantWoman has also come to think that even agreeing to have a couple people on the committee in the first place was a bad idea. Person number 1 was on Nominating Committee during a conversation where those present complained about RantWoman getting off topic. So RantWoman asked people to point out moments when that occurred. A large percentage of the moments identified had to do with disability. Yet Nominating committee barreled ahead…. Friend # 1 has NEVER acknowledged that this past might be a problem. Friend # 1 has no gifts whatsoever in the realm of asking insightful questions. Friend #1 also consistently misses RantWoman’s point: RantWoman sometimes asks people to echo back what she has just said. RantWoman would SO like there to be different data about comprehension and communication. And RantWoman esteems Friend 1 for SOME gifts.

 

Friend #2 and , RantWoman believes also Friend #1 were both present and said nothing at the moment that “I’m not interested in your thought processes Friend” earned his nom de blog. Further spiritual compost from that topic? Stay tuned?

 

Back to Sleep

RantWoman has now been through several cycles of this sleep stealing process. RantWoman is better off just letting things work out this way than trying to suppress what needs to be composted, BUT the whole dynamic is pretty disruptive. And so far RantWoman has not been able to wind a different path to the needed work.

RantWoman spent HOURS trying to process the email. RantWoman put out calls to many people who made her laugh and suggested RantWoman should just walk away from the whole fiasco. RantWoman did work in another hour or so of afternoon nap, although RantWoman really should just go to bed especially since she is barely looking at the good bad and … of the election results.

 

 

Further digression: #a11y the hashtag about electronic #accessibility

Data collection on Twitter. For one thing the scoring does not allow for notes tied to each topic. Oh, and  RantWoman’s beloved Autorotate does not work in the #WholeLifeChallengeApp. And RantWoman also wants control of her own data. So RantWoman has been advertising her #sleep issues all over Twitter.

 

Time to do that seems to be taking away from time to blog on the topics of the Challenge.

 

And we will not even talk about all the other threads of commitment RantWoman is trying to keep untangled.