Anxiety?

I think I made it to 5 hours more or less except spells of sleeping in 2 different chairs and waking up with CPAP mask on but machine not on. And too wired to go back to bed but things muddled to mind while I was doing dishes.

Tonight should be a lot better because I got in lots of walking today while running errands.

Did not get to laundry though.

As for the title, it took THREE rounds of email in some meeting notes to TRY To get to all the threads I heard related to the word anxiety. And not sleeping because of something on my mind and how I came to recognize possible issue not even counting the pile-on effects of not sleeping.

And I need my anxieties and have a right to my anxieties for example around traffic issues and if I tell other people some of them it will just frighten them and I do not have patience to be taking care of everyone else's fragility..

But today was mostly GLORIOUS and sunny.

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