Self- soothing because

 Try these examples on like shoes. How many fit?

I seem to be watching a few categories of videos just to create space for THINGS in my own family. Sometimes I am glad to have only my own problems. Other times it is not terrible just to know other people on the same planet find solace the same way.

There are several YouTube creators with a lot to say about Amish culture. Obviously they have left their communities because I am pretty sure being a YouTube creator just would NOT be done among people who don't even like being photographed, especially in the voyeuristic way tourists might. One video that sticks in mind: a woman who has just recently given birth and gone right back to work in the community is sitting in a buggy in town. She overhears one woman just ask her ordinary things like how are you doing after your child's birth. The Amish woman did not even have mental space or anyone who would ask the same of her.

The other genre is revenge videos where sometimes really disgusting people get caught by their own idiocy.

At least there are a different level of psychic work than all the cat rescue videos that just remind me that one current goal is to get my apartment to a state where it is safe to have another kitty come. And who cares if one option to list a goal only wants a dollar amount and has no space for other goals.

Other than that, fire alarms at 4:30 am SUCK

4:40 hours of interrupted sleep because it was impossible to settle while the strobe was strobing.