RantWoman Sleeps--or Not

 A wholesome diversion from all the things one needs to be diverted from. 6:18 hours of sleep. Errand in the sun Leg mostly held up and eating hazel nuts seemed to sooth spasms without drugs. Some bits of cooking or starts to cooking. Floor grime awaits. So do other chores. Grieving sucks. In some ways it is worse after the memorial, or at least I find more times to cry. Mlllheahhh I GUESS one is supposed to appreciate waking up and learning that President #StableGenius has decided to hold off on some of the lunacy he has been threatening.

I don't understand pancakes for breakfast because warm carbs are supposed to settle the body for sleep. But never mind. A recipe can't go wrong if it has real buttermilk in it.  6:45 hours of sleep. Grieving is EXHAUSTING. I could still have slept longer. Also wrapping my head around Mom as poster child for asymptomatic COVID transmission.

  5:?? hours of sleep. This is called getting to bed in time for decent sleep and still getting up in time to shower before heading out to MEMORIAL. I am tired and blessed and that is enough for now.

It is reassuring and soothing before sleep to consider how one animal can work wonders  I wonder how many other problems we could just let beavers handle Also, why we should NEVER rely only on current knowledge such as it is, no matter how much AI chews on it. Sleep was not particularly a happening thing, unless one counts besides the 1.5 hours of trying to sleep in bed and falling asleep repeatedly before and after going to bed. Anyway, I gave up, decided to get up and make a few days worth of porridge., corn, cashews dried cherries, cheddar cheese, powdered buttermilk, and a little bit of red pepper sauce. I also washed dishes, went out to buy bananas and had conversations...

 Here we are. Entertain us. Oops. Wrong centuries? 4:44 hours of sleep. Accomplishments today: 2 Zoom meetings including one that generated an automated crash report and the need to migrate to my phone roast some potatoes and yams. Also burn out the oven light, but who cares? deal with some paperwork. long chat who generously let me babble about things on just cannot say IN a memorial.   Answer one senior citizen tech support question by telling the senior to call the library for info about reading library e books. So I am practically in virtue land.

  5:52 hours of sleep Exactly 2 months since Mom died. I am still a raggedy mess. It's SO hard to let someone you love go. And Bible Study, James 4 1-12 reminds me why I am SO glad for Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing.